Looking For The Living Among The Dead

And as [the women] were frightened and were bowing their faces to the ground, the men said to them, Why do you look for the living among [those who are] dead?

Luke 24:5

Do you often look for The Living One among the dead?

Looking for the salvation of YAH among the creation of YAH?

His creation is beautiful indeed, but HE is the Source. There is only so much man can offer us before we realize only YAH can quench our thirst at all times.

Personally, I often find myself looking to my husband to fulfill everyone of my needs. I expect him to be healer, my protector, my provider, my redeemer, my abundance, my fortress, my joy, and my perfect teacher.

Even if my husband could be all of that and more for me, I know he can’t be all of that and more ALL the time. And when he falls short (which inevitably happens because he’s a human like me), I experience abandonment, fear, anxiety, sadness and despair.

As a wife, and I haven’t been a wife that long, I’ve had to accept that just because I’m called to seek my husband in all things just as the Assembly is supposed to seek YAHUSHA in all things, it doesn’t mean my husband gets to replace YAHUAH in my heart. ESPECIALLY since I seek a Perfect Love.

I’ve accepted that only YAH can deliver a Perfect Love without failure, and that I can cleave to my husband without idolizing him.

If you find yourself internally disappointed that each of your needs aren’t being met by your husband, this isn’t something to be ashamed of. We as wives are wired to cleave to, seek, and depend upon our husband. But there’s a difference between cleaving and idolizing.

It’s a natural part of your journey as a wife to experience this rude awakening of sorts. YAH is calling you near, to strengthen your marriage, your faith, and His reputation. Your husband is your lord, but he isn’t YAHUAH. Only YAHUAH can do everything and all things.

Here’s a prayer we can pray to be closer to our husbands as we prioritize our relationships with The Most High:

Abbanawa Sheba Shemayim (Our father which art in Heaven), thank you for gifting me with a husband. I recognize the love and provision you have imparted unto me through him and I greatly appreciate it.

I want to honor you in honoring my husband, but I don’t want to idolize anyone above you.

Help me to love and cleave to him the way You desire, while bringing you the utmost glory in every way.

Expose any idolatry of my husband in my heart, and replace it with Your Holy Spirit so that I don’t depend on, seek, or cry out for anyone before I look to you, my Creator.

May my husband be pleased with me as I seek to please you first. May he find favor with me all the days of his life, and may I enjoy submission in the freedom you’ve given me through HaMashayach. In your son YAHUSHA I pray this, seeking your most bountiful mercy. AMEN.